Looks like there may only be two or three posts from me this year in my blog, but I can see 2009 being a rebuilding year between myself and Second Life. I took most of 2008 off to experience the real world for a while. I had a pretty big move between cities this year and I had job that consumed most of my free time to where I could not be creative at all. Not to mention the fact with all the upgrades to the grid I needed to overhaul a computer just to meet the minimum requirements for the game anymore. That is not a complaint, if Second Life is to compete with other worlds, MMOs and even the highly evolving next generation video game systems out there, it must keep upgrading and evolving. However, now I'm back and I have been very busy.
Since my return the first thing I did was upgrade my look with a little help from a girl I met named Lori. She had a business of creating shapes and she really did well on Jazon's. I will enclose a picture of the new me at the bottom of this post. I was so impressed by her I became infatuated with the idea of falling in love in Second Life all over again. This was a big mistake because I let all of my defenses down and said yes to the first woman who threw herself at me. It was a very short lived romance, maybe two weeks, we dated a week, were partnered the next and then when I snapped to my senses I had to do what I had to do to undo the vows. She was pissed, as to be expected, I am sure I will never hear from her again, but it was the right thing to do to cut her lose or we would have both been unhappy in the end.
I was living at Lillie's place until the end of October when she had informed me due to some rule changes that I haven't fully looked into as of yet that she would be leaving Second Life. My mentor, my star, one of my true inspirations in Second Life was going away. I took the news bad, very bad, I was devastated, there was so much left to say to her, to do with her, just the thought of her great advice not being an instant message away made my heart heavy. She will truly be missed my many and hopefully she will return to Second Life, maybe another Phoenix, but by the way she was speaking the chances sound slim to almost none that she'll even be making a cameo anytime in the future. She has taken on a few other projects so I'm sure if you cruise over to her blog you can find out where that might be as well as read into detail about why she's decided to leave.
Being land-less I decided to track down my old land lord Bree. We have quite a history and if I'm going to have to pay someone for land it might as well be Bree. Not to mention her sim is one of the least expensive to rent off of, she has some beach houses for rent there too if you're interested look her up on the map. The sim is called Clearwater, I've also heard she's got some coupon specials if you get a $500L cupon from Home Depoz if you say you saw her clearwater ad there, and I promise I won't say any different. Unfortunately the neighbor in the lot across the way from mine had the exact same house as I do. If you know anything about me then you'd know I couldn't let that happen, I wouldn't have the same house as someone on the entire sim much less the lot across the canal, and so I went and got a new home. This would be house number 4 in my Second Life, but so for I'd have to say I like it the most. Sure my last home reminded me of Jamaica, but the home I have now is really more me. I'll have to do a post on just my home later with pictures. Bree and I had a falling out a year or two ago because one of our mutual friends had put a bug in my ear that she was overcharging me for rent. Without researching the claim I confronted Bree about it, got into a bit of a heated argument and I was actually banned from the sim for a bit. As time goes by we learn to forgive and forget, and thank goodness for that because I really like living at Clearwater. I have lived on that sim since my first avatar had land and it was actually owned by another group who sold the sim to Bree. Bree was my neighbor on the sim and one of my first contacts in Second Life. I believe I also mention this in one of my first posts in this blog.
The world is upside down now but slowly righting itself and as it rights I write. As far as my love life goes I have been seeing someone regular now I guess it's safe to mention her name, Petra, she's my light at the end of the tunnel. We are taking things very slow, almost too slow at times, but we've both been burned in the past and we want that trend to stop with each of us. She's a beautiful girl I can't wait to get some pics of her posted, and she's very smart in fact the second day we met she used a word that I had to look up. Big brains in a woman impress me and especially when a woman knows how to use them. I can see us going far together, there's not real life strings or expectations with each other, only to live life to its' fullest inside this virtual world, and look into each other fill any empty voids. That's what I needed to do the entire time, instead of trying to mesh the two worlds together I should have just been living both lives to the fullest, and that's part of the changing I've gone through during this year offline.
As far as catching up with the past, that's not been going too well, Lillie is gone as I mentioned before, a lot of women of the past just need to stay in the past, yet, there are one or two I could never sever ties with. Nesca, for example, was my first love and even though there is enough drama in our past to kill any type of relationship we could have, we keep turning to each other for answers, guidance, and company. I don't think I could ever give that train another go around even though it's been brought up recently between us simply because we had our run, it was a good one but it didn't work, I ended up getting killed off and she moved on to someone else. Now that things aren't working out with the other guy she trys to press rewind to try and pick up where we left off years ago, and I don't think either one of us can do that at this point in the game or our lives for that matter. It was tempting when it was brought up, a rush of those old feelings and emotions came flowing in, but shortly after that a rush of reality stopped those feelings in their tracks. Reality such as we've both grown into different people, and who we were back then would not like the people we've become. I guess the old saying, "Let sleeping dogs lie." would be appropriate.
I know I've said this before, but I will remember to keep writing more often. I have now found myself in Second Life, a better and brighter person than before, and in my real world I have found the time to update and post. I have a few ideas to keep me busy writing for you, and as much as I'm on now I don't see that plethora of information and experience drying up soon. As promised a look at the new Jazon Beck Below:
